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Dear Readers,

Welcome to the beginning of my new book. Here you will find Chapter I. Later as I complete each chapter they will be added. Chapter II is well on its way.

I have decided to share these things with you now because there are many of you who might want some validation for their present or past experiences. I know for myself that much of my spiritual growth was a very isolated and alone process. Often I questioned my sanity and also questioned whether I was really from this planet or not.

There have been so many strange and unworldly experiences in my life, that I have only realized in the past seven years that I am actually a very unusual and highly evolved soul.

All my life I wanted to be normal and more human like. I wanted a sense of belonging and fitting in. I know now that, that could never be with most intelligent human life on this planet. This is not because they are not wonderful beings but because they would never understand or relate to my consciousness. I tried so hard all my life to be like others but it just would not happen.

From the time I was young I was in tune and susceptible to the cosmic energies. I could always see, sense, and hear the language of energy. Being born an empath, I spent a great deal of my life trying to shut it off, so I could be like the rest of the world around me. Thank Source I was not able to do so.

There is no greater gift in life than to become aware of who you are naturally and to accept yourself. Once accomplished a new freedom and understanding of life pervade and guide your course.

To all of you, I wish only for that which I myself have found. I hope that all of what I share with you will aid in helping you find your center and naturalness of self.

Let the journey begin anew

From the time I was young, I could see and sense energy and entities. There is a definite and distinct difference between a vision, a visitation, and ghosts.

When I experience a ghost, I call it an apparition. An apparition is different from a visitation in that, a visitation is a deliberate act of one coming to visit another. An apparition is something anyone might see or experience such as an earth bound spirit, poltergeist, or any other form of displaced energy that may be hanging around.

Whether people are aware of it or not, there are many forms of displaced energies inhabiting the third dimensional world of form we call planet earth. This is due to many factors relating to the journey of the soul rather than the temporal being. I find most people choose to ignore such things if possible, referring to them as superstitions or mental illness, but they sing a different tune when they cross over to the other side, or move into a haunted space.

I received my first visitation from my Aunt Dorothy when I was about ten or eleven years old. She had died the day before she appeared at the foot of my bed to give me a message for our family. She was finally very much at peace and wanted to relay to those that loved her that would be in a place that was much better for her now. She was finally happy and all right.

My Aunt Dorothy died when she was in her early thirties. She had battled with alcoholism all of her adult life and had several bad marriages. She was actually one of my favorite persons in my youth, and I never really understood why she was so troubled. I always felt the closest, to the more troubled people in the family, while growing up. I now think it was because they were actually the most sensitive and sincere individuals around.

Once when arriving home from school finding the family gone, I started to go downstairs to my bedroom. As I descended the stairs the light would go out frightening me, and I would then, run back up. When I again reached the top of the stairs, the light would come on again. This happened several times before I decided to stay upstairs and wait for the family to return.

I always knew the house we lived in was haunted, but know one else ever noticed so I just kept my mouth shut.

Another time I awoke in my bedroom, I was about 12 or 13, years old at the time, and my room was covered with very large tsetse flies. When I say covered, I mean that there was not an inch anywhere in my room free of them. The strangest part was that they were not flying around at all, they were still, as if they were stuck on.

I of course started to scream and then ran upstairs. My mother then came down to my room, looked around, and then drug out the vacuum. She then began vacuuming the flies, off the walls and the floor. Her reasoning was that these flies must have nested under the house. (In the dead of winter, mind you) and decided to only enter my room.

They never even flew around while she was vacuuming them up. They just stayed still. These definitely were not houseflies and they were not normal.

I had always been afraid to sleep in our basement. We had moved into this house when I was about ten, but the basement always felt eerie to me. I knew it was haunted.

I ran away from home when I was about sixteen and went to Canada. I went with a girlfriend who was from there and was about twenty. She and I lived with another girl in a studio apartment and we all hitchhiked around Ontario and Quebec to go-go dance in the back woods bars. We had some pretty scary events happen to us but we all survived.

During the time I was sixteen through thirty, I traveled from coast to coast in the United States many times; sometimes by plane, sometimes by bus, and sometimes hitchhiking. I remember the time I was stuck in Laramie Wyoming and this group of College kids took me in. They lived in a community house called The Brothel House. Evidently this place had been a brothel many years earlier and the story went something like this.

There was a German girl who worked in this brothel and her father was very upset about it. One night he came to the brothel with an axe and a knife. When his daughter refused to leave with him he killed her and stuffed her body into a closet. He then went mad and continued to do the same to other women that were in the house.

Now whether any of this is true or not, I could not tell you. I can say though that while I stayed there, I was informed that there were locks on the outside of all the closet doors. I was told to make sure that my closet door was always locked when I went to bed.

I was walking down the hall to the bathroom in this house one night, and felt a hand reach out and touch my shoulder. Then I felt a deathly chill and someone or thing pass through me. It was definitely unearthly, and scared the bejeezus out of me. Upon questioning some of the tenants here, I was told that this place was continually haunted by the spirits of the women that had been killed here.

While I was staying here, my ex-husband finally agreed to give me back our little girl. I met him in Chicago where the transfer took place and brought her back to the boarding house in Wyoming with me. I placed my two-year-old daughter in the room across the hall from mine.

In the mornings, I would be awakened by her screams and upon entering her room would find the closet door unlocked and open. This was very strange as I took special care at night to make sure it was locked. She was too little to have been able to reach the upper lock herself and I now know that she became possessed after staying in that house. Since the time we left there until now, she has always been susceptible to possession. I believe to this day, that she carried demons with her from that place.

I also had another odd experience while there. One night I felt drawn to stop and visit the girl down the hall who was from India. When I entered her room, she was lying down asleep. As I approached, I saw an eye wide open in the middle of her forehead. I was sure it was painted on, so I deliberately stuck my finger in it. It blinked as I did this and I was paralyzed. The eye was very real and alive. This girl, who I now understand was in a trance state, began to speak. I do not now remember what the message was she gave to me, because I think I was in some sort of trance myself, but I knew it was important information regarding the journey of life I was on.

After leaving Laramie and The Brothel House, I found myself in a variety of living situations. I never knew there were so many haunted places on the planet. I visited my brother once in Greeley. The house he and his girlfriend were renting at the time, had the fireplace bricked up because of the portal that was behind it. Often anyone there could hear knocking and crying from the other side of the fireplace. There was also a story that went along with this place but I cannot now remember it.

Some years later I moved into a small house in Long Island New York that was so haunted no one would stay in the house alone but me. My daughter who was about ten at the time lived with me and you could actually see a gigantic portal in her bedroom. It did not seem to bother her so I left it alone. The other bedroom in this house was so haunted that I turned it into a dressing room. I set up my bed in the living room. My daughter was pretty big but she chose to sleep with me most of time we lived here.

The ghosts in this house would often move things around in the house, so you could not find them. There were also chains that hung down from the light fixtures to turn them on and off and they would very often be swinging circularly around the lights, sometimes in the daytime and sometimes at night. You could definitely feel the many presences in this house. You knew you were never alone.

One night while lying in bed I remember hearing a child sobbing. I went to see if it was daughter, but she was sleeping soundly. I lay back down but the sobbing drew nearer. After a time, I realized that this was a little lost soul. I began speaking with her and comforting her. I began telling her that it would be okay if she would just find her way to the light. At the time, I myself did not know much about the light, but it seemed like the right thing to do. I began to realize that I had the ability to take her to the light, so I did. After this experience, many other souls began coming for me to show to the light as well.

I later realized that this house was a major portal for souls crossing from this side to the other. I also was there to learn of my abilities to help them do so and truly start my own journey of light.

I will never forget my first life altering vision. I was about thirty-three years old at the time and had returned home late after working.

I was tired and lying in bed trying to fall asleep. I could not seem to get warm, so I piled on more blankets. I even got up and turned the thermostat up five or ten degrees. I realized after awhile that this was an unearthly coldness. Nothing I could ever remember experiencing before. I then lay very still, closing my eyes, and allowing whatever needed to occur to take place.

Before long I discovered that I was lying on a cold stone table, an altar of some kind, and realized I was inside a Pyramid. I could see through the apex above and the stone structure around me. Next thing I knew I was being transported up through the apex. It was all very natural and I felt no fear at all. Next I was hurtled through vortex after vortex of amazingly intense colors. I experienced each color individually, yet intricately interwoven. This was the full color spectrum. Their beauty and energy are far beyond any words or pictures I have ever experienced in the flesh, and the journey seemed to take place in the flash of an eye. I next found myself in the most profound bright white light imaginable.

The feeling experienced was one of being nowhere and everywhere, all at the same time. It was as if everything here were experienced through the understanding self that I am, rather than the temporal self. It was a place of communing, rather that speaking and listening. All things in this place were just known, and all questions answered, simply because they were inside. Revelatory and profound are the only words I can use to describe this experience.

Everything I wanted to know was revealed. There was no seeing or hearing yet I was communing within the energy of the whole. It was as if there were many with me yet we all were in communication at once. I believe I was in heaven, (for lack of a better description). I describe it this way not because of what it looked like, for there was no seeing, but because I felt such peace and oneness. I felt as if I was finally home. I wanted to stay here forever. I have since read books and heard others describe near death experiences that are quite similar to this.

Basking in this wonderful light and energy, I knew this was the ultimate experience. I decided I would stay here forever. This was not my decision to make obviously because I then felt a voice telling me I must return. The voice was inside my understanding. I argued, insisting I should stay, but soon found myself rushing back into my body.

This profound experience was only the beginning of many that I would encounter in the coming months. It was an opening of the light within and resurgence and re-awakening of my light body or light self. I call this experience" Finding My Light."

Shortly after this experience of finding my light, I began experiencing visions on the wall of my bedroom. These visions appeared in very ornate picture frames, and were set in different centuries. The frames were carved wood and beautifully intricate while the visions were like watching color movies. Here as before, the colors were so pure and vibrant that nothing in the physical can compare. I quickly realized I was watching moving pictures of my previous incarnations.

In one of these manifested visions, I saw a lovely countryside in France. It was lush with foliage and there was a horse drawn carriage with a woman in it.

I knew instinctively, that she and I were the same person. She was being taken in her ornate carriage, drawn by four horses to a castle upon a hill. There was a crest on the door of the carriage and a driver in a uniform. This woman was sad and troubled, but I knew not why.

When she arrived at her destination, I discovered that she was being disowned by her family. They were angry with her because she had fallen in love with the man who was betrothed to her sister. When the truth was discovered by her family, she was given an ultimatum of either giving up the man she loved, or being disowned by the family. She felt there truly was no choice and opted to give up all her means of wealth and lineage to be with this man. She was never again acknowledged by her family in that lifetime.

She later married the man and bore him two sons. Their life together would have been wonderful except for the guilt and sadness she felt from being disowned. This continually haunted her. There was no forgiveness forthcoming by any of the family; therefore, her children never were able to know her family

I knew from this vision that it was quite similar to the experiences I was encountering during my present incarnation.

In my current lifetime, I had left home when I was sixteen and moved to Canada where I fell in love with the French province of Quebec. I always loved the French language and even learned to speak it somewhat while living there.

Later I ended up In San Francisco California. I was about sixteen or seventeen and it was 1969. The Vietnam War was having a terrible effect on the young in the USA, and there was a Hippie movement of Peace and Love accelerating like wild fire. I sold newspapers on the corner and panhandled to eat, and looked for crash pads at night. I eventually found myself stranded and was taken in by a man fifteen years older than myself. He was somewhat of an unsavory character.

When my parents discovered he was black, they were quite concerned and very angry. To shorten the saga for you I will only say that they then disowned me for a time.

Returning now to the vision I was sharing with you, it clarified a lot for me as far the primary experiences I had been through in this lifetime. The emotions I experienced as I watched this movie of another life, were exactly the same emotions I had been wrestling with again.

A short time after this vision my clairaudience began developing more strongly. Clairaudience is the ability to hear things with your inner being or inner mind. I had had accentuated hearing abilities from the time I was young. To this day, I hear things others do not fathom hearing. I hear animals as they hide and burrow, insects as they communicate, sea life communicating and well as the language of plants and minerals. I have noticed over time, that I am more connected to certain forms of life than others. I am very telepathic and have been as far back as I can remember.

Most people think they have gone crazy if they begin hearing voices in their head. I already knew I was somewhat nuts so it did not seem very odd to me.

I will share an instance with you now in which I was sitting in my living room one evening when I began hearing two people speaking loudly to one another. It sounded as if they were practically in the same room as I. I began searching the room, to see if I could identify where the voices were coming from. I discovered they became clearer as I approached the hall closet. I opened the door apprehensively and looked in. There were definitely quite audible voices from inside but no people.

I do not know how the voice patterns were transported to my home, but do know that voice patterns are a large part of how I attune to things. I did not know who these voices in my closet belonged to, but finally realized I was probably hearing a conversation of some neighbors. There was an argument going on between two people. I remember wondering if there was something I was supposed to do, but the voices eventually stopped and I just felt somewhat eerie. I have had similar experiences since then but none that have equated to that one.

During these same few months, I began experiencing dreams of a visionary nature. From these, I discovered that we dream in many levels. Not only did I begin dreaming in color and remembering my dreams, but I also realized I was experiencing them. This I later learned is called lucid dreaming. Previously, I had done very little if any reading or research on dreams.

I will share a few that I wrote in a journal and still recall to this day. So much is lost in my expression of them on paper, but this is the jest of it.

In the dream, I was in a gas station looking out the large picture window up at the stars. Suddenly the stars all became shooting stars with bright white tails. Eventually they all came together into one great bright light. I was then absorbed into that light, immersed. I knew what it felt like to be that light and loved the experience. I wanted to be a star in the heavens and shine my own light. I do not remember anything else of that particular dream, but will share some others.

I also soon started dreaming in vivid and luminescent colors. I remember distinctly the various shades of red and pink in the dreams. There were also greens, yellows, and blues. There were usually no skies in the dreams. It was as if everything in the dream was connected and parts of the whole. Very often, the structures in my dreams would be curved and rounded rather than square or angular.

In these dreams, after entering one structure, there would be an archway leading to another and another. I remember feeling in the dreams as if these structures were temples of some sort. I felt exuberant and free in these dreams, knowing it was okay to explore whatever it was that lied ahead. I never felt there was an intentional destination but did feel as if one step would simply lead to the next.

Another dream I will share from this period was awesome. In the dream, I found myself in a wonderful place, sitting with a book in my lap. Upon opening the book, I realized that the pictures inside were in living motion. I remember the colors because they were so vivid and luminescent. On each page were different animals in their natural habitat. It was a fascinating experience.

When I reached the age of thirty-five, I was determined to be able to meditate better. I had tried for years with little or no luck but I continued my disciplines and finally the experience happened to me. I practiced sitting quietly for thirty minutes every day and read many books on Raja Yoga. I read and worked with books on the chakra’s that had yantras and mantras that I practiced. I would start my daily exercises by calling forth my chakras and then visualizing the Yantra and color associated with them. I would do different tongue placements in my mouth, and sit with my eyes crossed focusing on my third eye.

Once again, I started having visions. I was studying many books on the mysteries of the universe at that time, and was particularly interested in the origin of the Tarot. Divination had always intrigued me and I just did not feel as if anything I had read about the Tarot really put the pieces together for me. One day while sitting on my bed and practicing my meditation, my third eye opened. As I looked at the wall in front of me, I saw what appeared to be a round board that looked like a dartboard. It was a vision of the Tarot Wheel. While looking at it, I could also feel myself experiencing the steps of life as we ascend and descend the wheel. It was in essence the wheel of life and karma. This wheel represented the universal steps and laws of initiation, activation, and realization. These are the three major components of the spiritual journey we undertake when we awaken to our spiritual path. I was able to suddenly understand how the Tarot, Astrology, and Numerology, were all parts of this same wheel. I also now had a basis for learning about the cyclic process of all life. This information all just flooded into me through a process I call osmosis. Of course at the time, I had no realization of the assimilation process that always comes after such experiences.

In 1985, Uranus crossed my Scorpio ascendant and began heading for my natal Sun at 11 degrees of Sagittarius. During that time, I felt as if I was walking on air. It was as if I was holy in some way. I had to change my diet to adapt to the energy changes I was experiencing because I could not make myself eat cooked foods during that time. I also weaned myself off beef and pork for good. Since that time, I have always had to change my diet when in a high visionary state. It is simply a natural process for me and I have never felt any form of deprivation with it.

I started a Metaphysical Center of Light in 1985, with no money and had over 100 people at my grand opening. It was a wonderful networking experience for me as well as discovery. Many of the people I met while organizing the center were cynical and skeptical of getting involved in such a venture. They had been burned in the past by others dreams and hopes and were not anxious to try again. I myself was truly amazed though, at the people who did want to back the center, just because they had faith in me. I have never seen what others saw about me and would not let anyone invest money until I knew if it would be a go or not. I put a lot of time and energy into this dream but without funds, I decided the timing was not right. I have no regrets about the center. I discovered so very much about the metaphysical community and myself, that it was definitely a leap of faith worth taking. I promised myself that I would do it again one day but that would not manifest for many years to come.

1984, 1985, &1986 were great years for me spiritually. I learned to find my own tones within and without and learned that I could charge and clear energy by using them. I discovered that I had come from the ocean, (now this may sound strange), but I directly communicated with my father Poseidon and many of my sister mermaids, along with my brothers the dolphins and the whales. I journeyed into the oceans and met with water beings that showed me many hidden secret caves and mysteries. I was taken and shown two specific pyramids that lie on the ocean floors. I was also shown the shifting of the ocean floors that occurred due to underwater testing of nuclear bombs as well as other agents. It was very sad to see and understand what was happening to our ocean sea life and sea floors due to human de-connection.

I was told then that the unnatural shifting of the ocean floors would bring about massive changes in the upper terrain of earth. These would be in the form of volcanoes, earthquakes, and the shorelines rising and destroying beaches. I was told that the dolphins are actually a species from another star system that have volunteered to help the planet and her sea life by teaching humans compassion and love. Recently when communicating with the dolphins (now 2003), I was taken into the ocean bottom and shown where the dolphins have another World Sea that has been implemented to protect them from the current devastation of the earth. As they showed this safe haven to me, they also explained that I am protected in exactly the same way as they are. I refer to this protected space as the parallel Universe.

Other journeys I explored were to inner earth. Here I met with gnomes and fairies as well as the earth mother herself. She is a wonderful energy of love and light, but at this meeting, she was sad and discouraged by the ravages done to earth. I was shown a great many things on these journeys and also met three of my power animals.

The first was a black leopard with red eyes. A truly beautiful creature he and I experienced a true sense of companionship and understanding. We communicated telepathically and so much love and understanding was shared between us.

My second power animal was a porpoise. This wonderful aquatic being was another teacher and connection to the oceans. I will never forget the feelings I had upon meeting such graceful intelligent beings. My third power animal was a Hawk, again with red eyes. He would allow me to become him and soar as a bird, seeing through his eyes and feeling through his senses.

Even though my life was always rocky and filled with upheaval, I managed at age 35 to begin teaching friends and students how to visualize and connect with their companions in spirit. I was very dedicated myself to finding my spirituality, but discovered it was easier to take others to the wonderful worlds I had discovered, than it was myself.

Students were meeting their inner teacher, master teachers, fairies, Earth mother, unicorns, angels, animal guides, and all sorts of inter-dimensional beings. What a great time we all had. Many beings of light were visiting us at each class. All the attendees shared their feelings and experiences of the new dimensions being explored and experienced. There were many wonderful classes and friendships evolving. It was during this time that I was introduced to the teachings of an entity named Ramtha who was channeled by JZ Knight. In addition, oddly enough, I was introduced to the teachings of an entity named Lazaris, channeled by, Jack Pursel. These two beings came on the scene at approximately the same time as an entity named Seth, channeled by Jane Roberts.

These wonderful beings seemed to bring in a great deal of information and enlightenment to those of us who were hungry for soul awakening. There were tapes and Videos as well as sessions you could attend to be in the presence of such wonderful energies.

This introduction to channeling opened many doors for us that wanted to hear and see our spirit guides more clearly. It was as if a certain soul group started meeting and re-connecting with one another during that time.

I started going to the Red Rocks here in Colorado Springs, known as the Garden of the Gods to meditate regularly. I there had a vision of my first Indian Guide whose name is Red Cloud. As I sat in meditation he would appear to me and tell me to follow him. He would then take me to his Tee Pee by a river and there we would smoke his special pipe and talk. We would then often go into his Tee Pee and meditate together. Working with him eventually got me to higher levels in my meditations. I learned much from this wonderful being and teacher and he helped me work off some really old karma that was blocking my path. Red Cloud taught me the teachings of the Native American Medicine Wheel. He then taught me how to use it. When I asked him why he was giving me this teaching, he said that the sacred teachings had been hidden from the whites for a very long time and they were needed by all that were of honor. I still had not put together that the Medicine Wheel and the Pyramids were of the same design. That they both represented the eight spoked wheel of life and created vortexes, which were the energy wheels that connect the ley lines and energy grids of earth.

Red Cloud’s and my relationship was awesome. He and I became hawks together and flew over the desert in Arizona. He showed me where the Vortexes there were. He showed me where the largest and main one was in the desert. He also showed me the Red Rocks in Arizona and told me they were connected to the Red Rocks in Colorado. He showed me the energy connections between these rocks and vortexes. He told me that Colorado and its mountains were a Mecca of vortex energies that are connected to the twelve power points of earth.

This was my first introduction to Sedona, Arizona. I was so excited by what I had experienced that I knew I had to visit the place physically.

I was living with a boyfriend at this time; who was the son of a Baptist minister. He was an awesome person who could see auras and communicate with me telepathically, but was very strong in his own faith. We often argued about the visions I had and he convinced me one day that I was being controlled by demons. His philosophy was that only people like his father could talk with Divine beings. Anyone else claiming to do so was being tricked by dark demons. I began to doubt my own truth.

I went to Garden of the Gods to meditate that day. To my surprise, I was met in spirit by Jesus. He walked with me as he would an old friend and then said to me,

" Do you not think that I would have let you know if you were upon the wrong path?"

I answered that I would have thought so. He told me that we were brethren he and I. He showed me the invisible ceiling that individuals create above their heads, stopping them from seeing what lies beyond in consciousness. As he spoke, I clearly understood what he was sharing. He told me that I had no such ceiling and that was why I was able to see and perceive the other realms of life and others were not.

He explained to me that their beliefs were archaic and led them to believe that God is inaccessible until death. Me on the other hand had been speaking with those in spirit since I was young.

He also explained to me that all humans serve the Divine in their own manner and that I was not to judge others as being right or wrong, but was to learn to understand the true purpose behind it all.

Jesus was a wonderful loving energy and as we spoke and walked it was as if we had always known one another.

I asked him about the crucifixion, and why he had to suffer so. He laughed and explained that he was not the one inhabiting that body during that time. I believe his exact words were

"There was no need for me to have such an experience, as I had no karma. Another soul took my place to in order to work off karma and I was simply in spirit. It was those who were attached to the human form that I had taken, that needed the suffering experience to let go. They would in no other way understand the process of their own suffering. I never suffered my child."

What Jesus explained to me that day let me know that he was capable of ascending any time he chose. He told me the messages he tried to teach were often misinterpreted and he was sorry for that. He also told me that there were many Masters such as himself in spirit who had come to bring Divine messages by taking human form, whose teachings had also been misunderstood.

After this meeting, I once again felt holy. Standing in the presence of one so pure is an experience that could never be explained in words. The fact that he saw me as an equal was simply astounding to me. This experience also helped me to realize that there are many different perceptions of the same truth, even though there was only one truth. I realized that what stands in the way of union is judgement and opinion and I decided mine needed work. I was always judging others and myself too harshly. I stood in the presence of one who never judges. (Boy does that make you feel small?)

I experienced another vision during that period of an angel emptying out a vile of plagues upon the earth. I remember the sinking feeling that came over me as I watched, knowing that many incurable diseases were being unleashed. At the time, I wondered why an angel would do such a thing, but in retrospect I realized that I was simply being shown what humankind had brought upon itself.

It was not long after that the aids virus became a major plague as well as an infestation of other major incurable diseases. It is so interesting the amount of new viral outbreaks we have experienced since that time. In our present time (2003), the price for health care is unimaginably high, as are prescription drugs. In 1985, I could still visit a Dr. for $25 and pay $10 for a prescription.

I went on a vision quest in 1985 to Sedona, Ariz. I had learned about Sedona, from My Indian Guide Red Cloud and later picked up a book by Dick Sutphen that outlined where all the energy vortexes were with maps. I went by car and alone. I had heard that there were magical healing properties aligned to these vortexes, and that one could have amazing experiences by simply visiting them. I found all of that was true.

I hiked the Canyons and rocks alone everyday. When I awoke daily at sunrise, (I had never done that before), I was energized and ready to go.

I took a compass with me but would always forget to use it upon entering the canyons. Later when I decided to leave, I would realize I had no sense of direction. I would have to trust my intuition to lead me out. One time I climbed part of Cathedral Rock and found myself stuck at the top seeing no way down. I sat down, meditated, and prayed as it was beginning to get dark. All kinds of fears were coming into my mind. I was afraid I would fall and be broken and no one would find me for days. I feared I could be crippled for life. I was not afraid of dying, but was afraid of being maimed.

After my meditation, I finally discovered the way down. It was truly an amazing experience.

I met some very interesting beings in Sedona, who claimed to be extraterrestrial walk-ins. I did not know what to think of this at the time, but learned that a so-called walk-in was the experience of souls exchanging positions. So if one soul did not want or need to stay on the planet another soul could be assigned to that body to take its place. This, eliminating the process of being born as an infant. This all seemed a bit odd to me (to say the least), souls exchanging was definitely not something I could compute, but I went to a meeting to see if I could understand what was really happening here.

A group who called themselves the A team, and claimed to be from a system called The Blue Star, held a channeling that I attended. They were all dressed in the same type of uniform and they channeled different sounds like wind and music. Then one person claimed to be channeling information directly from the Blue Star.

This was my first experience with those claiming to be extraterrestrial walk-ins, but I was sure they were merely confused humans. I later did meet with one of them privately and realized that I had had a vision of this person before leaving Colorado Springs. Before I knew what was happening, I was in trance and relaying a message to this individual. I later decided that he probably was authentic and I was sent to give him a hand. It was strange to say the least.

Continuing on with my journey of Sedona, I visited a vortex one afternoon where I decided to meditate. In meditation, I began to feel myself journeying inside the earth. To my astonishment, there before me where rows and rows of long tables with many people seated and wearing these beautiful white uniforms. There were hundreds of thousands of beings that looked just like humans but were distinctly different, not in appearance but in energy. All things with them were harmonious and loving.

In a flash, it came to me that these beings were part of a galactic brotherhood. I was once again experiencing a state of communication where there were no words but I could understand all that was being relayed. I was shown at the time, how the Space ships enter into inner earth and that is where these beings reside while here. I was made to feel welcome and a part of all that was taking place. I felt a sense of true warmth and belonging. All was about working in love in unison.

Sedona was the first place I ever saw moving spaceships in the sky with my physical eyes. It did not matter whether it was day or night, you could always see them. I guess all this should have seemed strange to me, but somehow it was comforting instead.

I remember the suits these beings wore vividly, though I did not see one again until later when I met Lord Ashtar of the Ashtar Command. I will never forget the brightness of the white or the symbols upon them.

While hiking in my favorite canyon one day, I decided to meditate. I remember meeting with a Council of Three on one occasion and the Council of Nine on another. These Councils are part of the White Brotherhood that governs the spiritual path in our dimension. When brought before these councils it is a great honor and distinction. It is also a time to hear the truth about yourself and your mission.

I love the councils because they do not sugarcoat anything. They ask you what you want and then ask if you are ready to experience the initiations necessary to have it. They warn you that it will not be easy, and offer you their assistance where appropriate. They certainly let you know that you have bit off a hunk to chew.

I met such a vast array of people while I was visiting, and many of them had broke down vehicles and could not leave the place. While attending a service at a spiritualist church, I received a channeling from Geronimo, (whom I had never met before). He told me I would always do my work no matter where I was, so there was no need for me to stay in Sedona. I was relieved to know I was not stuck here.

The energy experiences I took home from this place continued to activate me for at least one year after my visit.

After returning home to Colorado Springs, my daughters husband decided to send her back to me because he wasn’t ready for the responsibility of marriage or being a father. She was about eight months pregnant when she returned. My daughter was merely seventeen at this time, just a child herself. Her life and mine together had been one of moving from state to state and home to home. She never really had any roots but me, and me being a Sagittarius, I never really settled down until I was 40. My daughter had a massive amount of drug problems and also a lot of emotion and mental difficulties. I as a mom of course felt it must be my fault, and now we were going to have a new baby.

I was already communicating with this baby while it was in the womb of her mother. I would simply feel my third eye open and attach to the baby inside. I knew then that she was probably going to be a highly evolved soul. I truly think it is true that the gift of vision often skips a generation. My daughter never seemed to experience the gift or show any true signs of having it.

I was there when my granddaughter was born. The Angels and Beings of light that filled that room created an awesome scene. What a miracle birth it was.

My daughter and granddaughter lived with me for a time but my daughter refused to change her lifestyle and take responsibility for the choice she had made. I tried to get social services to take some action but they saw it as a power play between the two of us.

When the new baby was about a year old, I decided to pack up and move to Fort Lauderdale, Fla. I hoped that without me to rely on my daughter would be forced to take responsibility and act like a mother. I was wrong.

I sold nearly everything I had to make the trip and had a hard time once I arrived because I had no funds. I had a friend there, with whom I stayed. It was a lot more difficult than I had anticipated starting a new practice and getting involved with the spiritual community. Approximately two weeks after my arrival I received a telephone call, telling me that my granddaughter was in the hospital possibly dying, I decided to return to Colorado.

This was an interesting journey as well. The call came the day before New Years Eve. I had no money, job, or means of borrowing. I was stuck. I went to spirit and told them that I would abide by whatever was in order but truly wanted to come to her aid if possible. My mother finally came through with a standby airline ticket and I had to leave on New Years Eve day. Well of course, the planes were pretty well packed and when I reached Chicago where I had to change planes, there must have been sixty people-waiting standby for the same flight as me. Stand-by is first come first serve, no reserved seat.

I figured that I would be at this airport until the next day. I sat in the back of the waiting area and began to pray. The plane that landed had to take passengers already on it off due to heavy fog, so not only could they fit no one else on but also they were unloading some. I was very calm and accepting of my situation. Then suddenly after removing a number of passengers from the plane, the woman at the counter looked around all the people in front of me and pointed to me asking,

"Are you waiting to get on this plane?"

I stood up and she told me I needed to hurry. I could see the dismay in the others as they watched me embark and simply thanked the Universe for this gift. After arriving in Colorado Springs, I went directly to hospital where this small child was lying in intensive care, with tubes sticking out of her everywhere.

As I attempted to enter the room, a nurse stopped me declaring that only one person at a time was allowed in and the father was with her now. I looked into the room and expressed to the nurse that I did not know who that man was but he was definitely not her father. She removed him. I then burst into the room. When the baby saw me she lifted, her head and a wonderful light began to emanate from her. This made the nurse very happy and she expressed to me that she knew the child was waiting for someone and she was certainly glad I had arrived.

My granddaughter was surrounded in her room by Isis herself fanning the baby and an entourage of other beings in assistance. My granddaughter had a miraculous recovery. She was released to me from the hospital three days later.

In 1987, I ended up a full time mother of a one-year-old. My daughter had found her a new man and moved to Missouri. I was now thirty-eight years old, penniless, basically jobless, and almost homeless. It was not the first time I would found myself in such a position though, but I was sure hoping it would be the last.

I was tired of struggling to be a success in the normal world, where I had done Restaurant and Real Estate work, so I decided to clean houses, do readings and teach classes on metaphysics. Did not really have a clue as to how it would work out but I was done with the outside world workaday week and life.

I meditated and told spirit, (whatever spirits were listening) that I either needed to figure out what I was doing on this planet. My entire life I had battled with depression and could not seem to overtake it. I did not want to raise another child in this state.

I started attending some conclaves that an old associate of mine was holding. Conclaves were meetings that supposed galactic beings held in order to teach humans of the roles they (the galactic beings) fulfill to here on earth. It was all very airy-fairy to me at first, a whole lot teaching about light and love but not a whole lot of people who were of light and love themselves. Many claimed to be extraterrestrial walk-ins, and the feeling I got was how much more advanced they were than the rest of us. I must admit there was an interesting variety of people who taught and attended these conclaves but I felt frustrated that I already knew more in a variety of genres than they did. Self-proclaimed teachers who say there are new things happening always give me the creeps. I think it is because I know there is nothing new under the Sun only different methodologies to the same end.

I must say though this walk-in thing intrigued me. These conclaves were held as part of the Ashtar Command. These were meetings where people gathered and channeled members of The Ashtar Command, who were space brothers, of the highest caliber. I was disappointed by what took place at these meetings and felt like these people were mostly crazy but later in my own meditations met with Ashtar himself. He is an awesome being and part of the brotherhood of light. With this connection, I also met an ascended Master named Sananda. I had previously, never heard of either one of these beings, but was enthralled that I had met new friends to work with.

Ashtar is a wonderful energy and such a being of love, Sananda works closely with him, and is the Ascended Master often referred to as the true Christ. Sananda is no nonsense kind of being, who taught me how to process, let go, and balance past karma. Working with him, I experienced many different initiations into the higher mysteries of my own consciousness.

During this training time, I was transitioning rapidly. All I knew was that major things were happening in my brain and to my consciousness. I remember going to the Garden of the Gods to meditate one day and staying in the car because it was sprinkling outside. During that meditation, it was as if the top of my head came off and I could literally feel my brain as if it were electricity. So much became ignited and connected during the meditation, that when I returned to physical consciousness, I no longer knew where or who I was. I remember the crown of Chakras in my head being ignited and I still remember what the band inside my head looked like. It had seven faceted jewels, all the same color as the chakra centers. I also now know that, that band is what opens the Crown Chakra.

The first experience I remember getting lost like that, was when I was In Atlanta, Georgia, working an Expo. I used to walk to the park from the place I was staying, sit, and meditate by a tree. I remember being taken out into a different color ray of flame each time. I would be gone for about 45minutes to and hour, when I returned to physical consciousness I would be lost. It would take some time to re-orient and figure out where I was, how I got there, and where I was supposed to go. I did this for five days in a row and still think it probably took me six months to three years to assimilate the information I experienced during those sessions. The visions of the Flames were indescribable. They did not look like fire but were moving energy of color that engulfed my entire beingness. What beautiful energy.

One evening while sitting and meditating in my living room I saw Someone flying towards me on a golden rope. He came right at me and entered into my third eye. I then realized that it was St. Germaine. He was so perfectly beautiful and brought such a loving energy. I then began working more and more with his wonderful Violet Flame of Transformation.

St. Germaine, is the Ascended Master who pleaded for us to be allowed to have and use this powerful energy in the third dimension. This he did before the oversoul when they had decided we were too undisciplined to use the flames sacredly in our dimension and would misuse their energy. St. Germaine had faith in us, and his request was granted. He, as other great-ascended Masters, put his integrity on the line for us.

One day while driving home and rounding the curve near my home, I spied a gigantic spaceship in front of me. I had never seen one so close up before and it was humongous. I knew this was a gift for me to see and know that I was not crazy for believing I was in touch with and working with Ashtar and his people.

The ship was a saucer shape and white. I remember wondering where it was going to land when I realized that it entered directly into the earth and disappeared. I then knew that these beings have the capability of letting us see them or not, depending on what they choose.

I think working with Lord Sananda and Ashtar was when I had my first conscious walk-in and walkout, experience. I was doing a ceremony as I had done so many times before, and was asking for help with my depression.

My manic states had been so horrible that I wanted nothing more than to be done with them. I remember feeling as if a large vacuum was hooked up to me sucking and sucking. I felt as if a part of me was taken out. The depressed part.

Looking back, I realize that I also became conscious of my higher self. The part that was taken was brought back to me some years later to integrate. This experience gave me renewed strength and drive. I was so, so grateful.